An Introduction
First things first - I am happy. I will probably post a lot of shit on here implying that i’m unhappy, but i’ll probably just be pissed off and venting.
6 months ago the girl I loved broke up with me. I’d given up everything for her, I moved out of the country, away from all my family and all my friends at the age of 17 to be with her. For nearly 4 years I was with her, I gave her everything she could have wanted and we were both happy.
Then she realised she wasn’t into girls. After four years?!
What a gunshot to my heart. I was absolutely heartbroken, and left the island two weeks after she broke the news to me. I had to give up a well paid job, all my friends I had made, my pets, everything. I moved back in with my Mum in England, no friends to go back to, i’d lost pretty much all of those when I moved away.
I then started talking to an old friend, she was comforting me and being really lovely, making sure I was okay every day and distracting me from the pain I was in. After a few weeks of catching up online, we decided to have a day out in Manchester, and I’ve been with her ever since.
A lot of people think I rushed into this relationship so quickly, but the truth is, is that we never forced anything, everything that happened, just happened. I’ve never been with someone so like myself, so on my level, so selfless, and just so amazing.
My ex got with a guy a couple of weeks after she broke up with me (I believe she was seeing/sleeping with him while I was with her, her mother kinda gave that away even though she still denies it) and that really rubbed salt in the wound. Me and Emma kept things quiet at first, to make things easier, and there she was, flaunting her shit everywhere. Then he left her after a month or so. HA. It just hurt to see her hurting more from that than from the demise of what we had.
But right now, I’m happy. In a way I’m still hurting from what has happened to me, I have trust issues and I get incredibly lonely sometimes. But all in all, I have my family, and I have my girl. I’m very lucky.
